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everyone lets cheer "Kurara Chibana, Kurara Chibana, Kurara Chibana!" she is iciban~neh! if you missed out on what is the hype about Miss Japan 2006… read on! ouch she is hot~

you know when a woman is hot… she exludes such charm… it really wets your dream… hahah… sorry

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what a week it has been… physically drained and mentally exhausted… emotionally numbed… been accused, been let down upon, been scolded and terribly mistaken… this is life, i guess. It will get better, i am sure.

feeling nonchalant now that its over

do you remember those colourful caterpillars with shoes? yeah…  spotted them again at the toy carnival held at taka over last week. reminds me… i used to have one… until it collected dust and disappeared one day… must be my aunt… she hated the legs… too many, she said… hahahahahaha… for me… its the balls that made the segments…. had a thing for balls actually  =P

One of the things i never really understood is… RP’s new campus… it has strange openings and so-called doors… that is really some tunnels leading to somewhere… maybe…. Billy, my HR colleague… standing here with this make-do door and the same height entrance… really amusing… i have never seen such a thing in my life… China Construction, do avoid buying any buildings made by them.

The most beautiful thing is the lawn above the huge cave below… situated on the 3rd storey…. we have our own lawn… quite nice and relaxing… in fact… yesterday (friday) RP celebrated its 4th anniversary… on the lawn… and to their horror… a drag show with really yellow jokes… erm… even i am not comfortable… its really bad taste yellow jokes

It was Aloha Night… and the sporting department - Centre for Educational Development danced the hawaiian way… so cute. we had diluted red wine with orange pulp… nice… but i got high after one glass… red as lobster as usual… had wanted to drink more… but am afraid i might scold my superiors for ill-treating me - that’s another story.

   I must say… we have quite a lot of sporting staff in RP who dares to dress up like that… the one carrying the surf board is a Director, by the way… yeah… its crazy night of boring celebration that drag on forever… i left at 8 plus… heard it ended at 10 plus with fewer staff than u can count… of cos… its the lucky draw that made them stay on… such motivating staff

it really never occurred to me… how life will be like after graduating… suddenly everything seem so adult and it made studying so much more child-like and innocent… time is also lost with these internal struggles to daily issues at work… where is my light-hearted nature? … i miss myself…

I managed to clean my closet… keeping away memories of the past 15 years… the clothes that i used to wear when i was in secondary… these clothes that i still wear till yesterday…

Perhaps its time to keep this chapter of my life neatly piled up and not on the hangers…

I miss you Belle… for many reasons and for the shared memories we have together… really love you alot…

To my great grandma… whom i prayed for alot… when she was scared… somehow when i looked at my hands… i see yours… i used to play with your hands… and telling you how crumpled they look… you told me stories of grandpa and how you came to Singapore… i miss you alot… if only i can re-live that moment in time… i will tell you how much i love you….

Grandpa… if only i have spent more time with you… i knew we seldom talk… but you shielded me alot… you held my hands tightly not wanting to let go… but still i came late on the day… and you left… i didnt say goodbye… i am so sorry… i really miss you… i didnt cry when you went in… n perish without my tears… i am so sorry… i guess… i cannot cannot live without your love… i terribly miss u so…….. i really miss you

because i am enjoying life now much more than previously

because the environment is much more condusive

because i am loving every moment of it

hi guys, how are you? I have been living like a recluse… because i am confused… i do not know what i want to do with my life… please, do accept my sincere apology if i have offended you in any way .

most of you who first got to know me… either know me as very funny or dull… its due to my split personality and… u know how chemistry works… sometimes there is that spark and it creates conversation and other nonsensical talks… on some days… i jus want to keep my world to myself… feeling distant and …not wanting company…

i must hav been the most horrible friend you ever met because i hardly call you up for chat… yeah… i know because you have been keeping to yourselves too… rare to receive a call from you too… so there you go… a few days without conversation nor sms… a few months without… a year without… a few years without… handphone number changed… home address changed… you get on with your life… i got on with mine…

so where does the story goes? even with this incredible idea of friendster… can it work? so what if you read about me ranting rubbish on the net? will you feel how i feel or seem closer after reading my blog? i dunno… u may know mine… but i do not know yours… so what gives? nothing

thus… i shall start my long winded frustrations here starting from… kindergarten… hey u folks… although i do not remember any of your names… but at least i kept our class photo… nicely framed up… how r u? growing up is not easy… i do remember i am already corrupted… yeah by u folks! those silly underpants watching … u dirty bastards… so hav you grown up to be a pervert? hahaha… ok la i am being cynical today… ignore me  haha… ok what i really want to say is… have you found me on friendster?? can some friend-friend-friend-friend please tell these friends in the picture… hahaha i think they still look the same… that they can add me on friendster so at least they can read my blog and know what i am doing? cos this blog is really really about me, myself and i and i want you to know it. cheez

so do you know any of these folks in the picture?

as you can see we are really an unhappy bunch of small kids… terrorising the poor teacher who had no choice but being kidnapped by us, kids, with a toilet roll scroll on our hands… hahahaha… we are watching you teacher!

i think i will jus start with kindergarten for today… to dig up all the photos … is like… digging my nose… full of crap

this is me when i am young young ago. haha … do u recognise me?

 

Unazukin is the next big thing in Japan after Tamagotchi!

It actually listens to your story and questions. Ask her a question and she will nod or shake her head. It is available at marina square 2nd floor near the open square area… and near creative store. It costs S$14.95. I wonder if it is cheaper to buy online.

Can someone buy for me, pleeeaassseee?

Hey Guys! Miss me? I guess not but you definitely miss SP. So being such a nice guy, i went back to SP and took pictures for you. Do you remember these?

  It is a very hot Saturday afternoon and i braced the sun to SP to take these pictures. At BV mrt station, where i alighted, it was a construction nightmare. The walk to SP seems much longer now… i never thought it was such a distance away.

First stop T1A and the MacDonald~ they are still there… it is really nice to see familiar things. I still remember talking to Joyce here… about her short hair and moustache… hahah… then Mas was here too hanging around… i always love looking at Mas… she is so friendly… by the way… she has already got a baby… really look like Mas… the photocopying shop is still located at the same place… still remember rushing down the steps to copy Ping Yang, Winnie (he is a guy) and who is the other guy… sigh… i cannot remember now…anyway… we always copy and study each other’s notes…

Do you remember this? It is where the JWs sit and gather during lunch break… i wonder if it is still as active now… it used to be scary because i initially have one classmate that is JW then he recruited one… then he tried to recruit me… luckily i am not so religious… ahhaha… anyway… i do not believe in this.

ahhhh our block our block… whaaat number already… anyway the name has changed to design and environment…. no longer civil and building…. sigh… guess civil and building are passsee now… the green grass is now replaced by wooden platform… canteen one is renovated… no more infamous CHICKEN RICE store. haha the worm in the chicken rice… siah… thats how terrible

  Part of the slope is now terraced by wooden platforms…. sigh… the surveying store is still on the ground floor… the drawing rooms still on the first level… and the notice board where we cramp our neck to see our results still there… the timetable still there… the lecturers’ pictures are still there… hahaha… all the same. Do you remember Magdalene Lee? She is still there… oh yah… the block is T3A.

   And who can forget the hydraulics and geotec lab… haha.. remember compaction test? sigh… those happy days…

do you still remember the yellow covered walk way?… during orientation… they said… if you lose your way… just follow the yellow walk way… hahah

The bookshop is still below the Library entrance… thats where i bought the special pen for drafting… drafting paper… and the T ruler… and lots of tidbits to munch

Superman longs for Lois but is saddened by her rejection because he left her for 5 years after making a whoopie and a fragile kid pops out of the wedlock. In come loving Richard who knew what happened but so graciously be the ultimate lover one can ever hope for - he accepted that kid as his own, didn’t marry Lois but stayed by her side because she still longs for Clark, saved Lois from the doom ship that she so kaypo(ed) went to investigate with her son, held on to the kid and the unconscious Lois in the fast rising water kitchen and so bravely offered to send Lois to see Clark who was in the hospital after pushing a mountain of Green kryptonite and his crystal (i dunno what this is) out of outer space and Richard still hopes Lois will return for him when he told her in the car "I will be waiting for you here" and Lois lamely shook her head and took the kid with her to see his daddy superman.

Its really tragic, i tell you. I know this plot is going to be draggy because the love relationship potrayed by Bryan Singer is like… 70% of the movie. I have to admit this director is the new guru for mixing animation with reality. How fake superman looks? Erm… i thought Superman, acted by Brandon Routh was not real!!! He looks animated.

That aside, I want to tell you… i teared. Why? I realised love can be so heart felt. Let us put aside all the frustration of being on your own when you are in a relationship… let us put aside the longing for freedom and the need to come to terms with stale moments… let us put aside these thoughts and just linger in the moment of being in love - sacrificial love. It is the most beautiful type. It also made me realised that I need a family. Sigh… where do i start? I guess i am one of those who look beyond and focus so much on emotions (but doesn’t show it or do it in return).

My best friend told me recently that he couldn’t feel his relationship. I asked why and what happened. He mentioned that there was no empathy and he couldn’t feel that she cared. I told him, you had to move on. The fact that moving on is a very bad idea… because it evolves letting go of all the things that you have done and shared… it will be nothing after that… sad

I guess that was how Superman felt initially… when he tried his very best to win back his love… of cos… being Superman he can do all the amazing things to win a girl’s heart… what about us? ordinary folks… sincerity…

Why do i always get into these crappy thoughts? Sigh… I miss the love… or have i been over sensitized by love? whatever happen… i have been selfish.

i want to cry… really want to cry after the film… because i realised my heart is made of steel… i am not a person you can fall in love with and feel it all… because i am a man who doesn’t give emotion that freely in person … forgive me