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Heeez… met up my friends from uni… okay only the five of us now… so where are you Lijuan, Clement, Daniel and Ed? sigh… i guess you guys dun want to meet again… we kind of made fun of the person sitting next to us… cos she looks abit like Lijuan from the side… hahaha… see how we tried to secretly take picture of her… flanked by (1) miao and (2) fang wahahahahaha… its real funny

… hor hor… look like Lijuan hor… wahahahaha…. we had real fun making a fool of ourselves… i think you guess it lah… our conversation revolves around work again… and joseph talked about his new company… he encouraged us to move on… and to jump ship… wahahaha so funny… but i really dunno what i want…. if i do.. i wouldn’t spend 2 years thinking of nothing… wahahahah… that’s life lah… i like to be peaceful

after fooling around at Terra… we moved on to TCC… hmm i wasn’t feeling that well… after eating a thick creamy pasta with erm ham and bacon… hahaha… okay that was real fat… but hey… i have already given up trying to maintain my weight… PS: its near 23 BMI liao… thats FAT!!! but i dun look the part leh.. so weird… so at TCC… we chatted more on work and jobs… sigh… is that what we can talk about nowadays? what about our love life… ahem… may i add… secret love life… wahahaha… i know zits about theirs… they don’t know mine either… that’s only fair… i guess

and so… we left after mid-night… the gals are real funny… they kept using calculators to divide the sum each of us had to pay… sigh… must it be so exact?

it was a really nice gathering… xiao wen will be at germany for training … i dun think i will even notice her absence for 3 months… see… thats how friends have become… detached… sigh… that’s life

i do not know why my brother is so selfish… was it my fault that caused him to be like this?… was he out to take his revenge on me for not being a good brother? take just now for example… i asked him where was the car key… he said, "with me"… so i said, "i need to go NTU tomorrow"… he replied,"i’m going to army"… bleh~ for goodness sake… i didnt even drive the car to camp and we had ICT back to back… because i know he needed the car to travel to meet his friends… i dont hog the keys!!! … when i need it… he hid the keys… WTF!!!! i refuse to argue with him…

————————–(the next day)————————————-

ah, very good… still sleeping when i left for office… then in the afternoon… i went all the way to jurong west… then i realised i forgot to bring my transcript and scroll… so i took a cab back home… opened the door… eh the door was not locked… i was already fuming… bloody CB~… there… he was sitting in the living room watching TV… so i asked "how come you are still here? you are not going to camp?" then he replied "later la… at 3 plus!" WTF… 3 plus and go to camp… you want to bluff me??? i walked into my room… took my stuff and went down to take a cab back to NTU… guess what… i verified with my mum… my mum said "he finish reservist last week already"…. ahhh… KNN CCB!!! at 8.20pm, he is still not home!!!! F***

at least i know if i take cab from my home to ntu … it costs $14 bucks… and in smooth traffic condition… it takes me only 20 mins…

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Yang Chung Wei  楊宗緯… this guy from taiwan who participated in a singing contest… but he lied about his age… hence he was disqualified… but he sings very well…

(example) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a3_OjVvVH6I

1) gov gave an early signal for GST hike - when did they ever not give us a very early surprise? can we do anything about it?

2) there was sufficient discussion to explain the reason for GST increase - are you sure our discussion on forum pages and blogs sufficient? i think this point no. 2 should be… there was abundent dissemination to the people on why GST had to increase… i know for sure i do not buy the rationale on additional fund for social progs such as workfare scheme and so forth… blah~

3) GST offset package somewhat mitigated people’s fear of having less money after the tax hike… hello? i see this as giving our tax money back… to me… its more like… "ok, some money for you, now move on"… sigh~ really, what do you think of this, Sue-Ann?

4) businesses are more savvy at explaining price increases… no longer attribute it to the GST hike but more on rising costs such as rental and raw materials… er, this is more like coincidence that our economy did well and hence the rental and property prices increase… plus our neighbour is playing games to try to cripple our economy hence stop supplying us raw materials…

5)  businesses are more worried about other escalating costs like wages rather than the GST hike… er, from what i know… my wage increase is peg to my performance appraisal and whatever is increased is not sufficient to compensate on the GST hike… its HIKE for goodness sake… Sue-Ann, you wrote this yourself

In fact, while reading more into your article… there are more points… let me point them out

a) the general acceptance of the GST increase could also stem from a greater understanding of the tax system
b) it is the third GST hike in more than 10 years and people have come round to the idea is inevitable
c) the booming economy could have eased the anxieties

She said it herself in the closing para…
a) businesses take advantage of GST hike and jack up prices beyond 2 percentage increase
b) will this raise the rising cost of living?
c) will GST rate go up any further?

To me, I have already given up on questioning why the increase on GST and then shortly after an increase in their pay. For a matter of fact, I am going to live with this as long as I am living here. I have also become obedient and accept whatever policies that came out of the blue. However, I am not happy that news reports are more and more pro-gov. We on the ground want more factual things to be reported yet our voices are unheard. A news reporter can do much more… but sadly, have they exercised their privilege?

NOTICE
Please DO NOT quote me… i have already given up…

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me-ee, happy birthday to me….. *blows*…

ah… one year older… and another step closer to the big 30!!!

i cannot believe it… what have i done all these years… is it productive? have i made any progress? sigh sigh… maybe if i break it down… it may help me understand better

Academic
1) PSLE –> ok pass –> but not very good –> my mum made the decision for me to study in express
2) O levels –> ok pass –> but still not good enough –> i decided to study in a polytechnic
3) Diploma –> ok pass –> not COM holder but whatever –> i decided to try my luck and applied for local uni and so lucky… i got in… on what credits?
4) Degree –> ok not bad –> after struggling on those tedious maths… and getting panda eyes, i pass –> finally i fulfilled my intention to do my mum proud… yeah

Career
1) A lot of temp jobs during holiday… but not very promising –> failed
2) working like slave… ok to be more accurate… slave to emails and to the garden of eden… but still stuck in my current position as an admin officer –> failed
3) drawing salary… erm… its confidential… but only min increment after 2 years –> failed
4) changed department but still doing shit work –> failed
5) still in the company –> FAILED big time

Love
1) no *** –> failed
2) but unavailable –> yeah~
3) got great friends and buddies –> yeah~

Wish
world peace … paiseh *blush*

i feel like bitching about myself today… tmr is my first day of work after 2 weeks of break… this seems harder than it looks… i dun feel like doing anything… yet i have to do it… its like… starting an ignition… u jus have to run when its started… sigh… yesterday at my grandma place… my grandma spoke to me… its like the first time after many years that we have a proper talk… maybe its because i was there early… and she and i were the only people in the house… so… she started asking me… if i have a gf… i said no… she said… then u must go and find one now … now is the right time… she launched into a history lesson on my parents married at age 27 and had me at 28… and so forth… then i told her… i just want to be alone and maybe… in future i will settle down… then she said… yes but u have to do it fast… i want to drink ur nupital tea before i go… then i jus sigh… its a form of threat and reality at the same time… i know… cos i love my grandparents alot… in fact… i am going to cry now… she asked if i had dreamt of my grandpa… i said no… unlike my great-grandma which i had dreamt once… i wondered why my grandpa didnt want to visit me… i miss him alot… okay… bad boy ben… it must be you… you are driving everything wrong… you are driving in the wrong direction, head-on… to obstacles… ben… you are wrong… sob… sometimes i wonder if there is really life after death… or there are really spirits… cos i know something… no deity or god can protect you… you have to survive on ur own… i remember telling myself after my bad grades in psle… that i must survive and pass… and succeed… i dun think i have done so… on the surface… everyone must be thinking… he has it all… but in actual fact… i dun… i’m as empty as the vacuum of air… my grandma asked me if the gold chain my grandpa left for me is too thick… its only then i recalled… yes, the gold chain.. where is it now?… its been more than one year since grandpa pass on… how useless and careless i am… where is the gold chain now? sob… then my grandma said… u know ur younger cousin… is still jobless and doesnt want to work… cos he is afraid of hardship… i replied… but he has a diploma in business… why aint he finding work… then my grandma said… his dad is jobless now too… and i know my aunt is not working since 20 years ago… then leave my cousin’s brother… he is the only person working in the family… sigh… and the strange thing about destiny is … u never know what is install for u… i might have been the stupidest of all the cousins… but i managed to do things most of them didnt… i must have done something right somewhere… or it could be a matter of luck… who knows? … i have been thinking to myself… what did i do?… i must have been a bad influence to my brother… cos he really follows whatever i do… then i read leon’s blog… he and his brother’s relationship is so good… but me and my brother are like… strangers in the same room… whatever happened? sigh…

i feel like packing my bag now and leave for good… but i cant…

cos this place has alot of memories… good or bad… happy or unhappy… they are already part of me…

ahhhhhhh… can i start over again? can i press the stop button and replay? can i? life is not a game afterall…

孙燕姿 需要你
http://www.08yy.cn/liuxing/xuyaoni/3934/
作词:伍家辉 萧贺硕
作曲:伍家辉

那天晚上
望着海洋
想了很久
才想清楚
是我不安
是我无法摆脱寂寞

放下自己
忘了失去
我不再是
你的唯一
一片寂静
只剩下海潮的声音

明明不在
我学会忍耐
一个人我应该
需要你
又逃不开
让脑袋游在
充满你模糊的
想象里

明明不在
我学会忍耐
一个人曾想过
放弃
都明明需要你
却还犹豫不定

i was thinking to myself… as i read yesterday’s Today paper (12 June 07) … whether i should say anything at all about Derrick A Paulo’s story on Alfian Sa’at. well… for those who do not know anything… please read http://www.todayonline.com/articles/193853.asp

actually… i do not want to say much… since i am in the education sector… and i was once in recruitment… blah** anyway… all i can say is… if you are active in the alternative circle … please do not go around and be so prominent… it doesn’t help… esp if you want to get a job in the education sector (PERIOD)

enuf said…

i had my range on monday… the first round went off… and the impact shocked me… hahaha it has been so long since i fire a round… after that its great… shoot most of the figures down except 2… but the night range isnt that good… hardly see a thing… i think i hit sand most of the time… as the figures remain there…

the greatest thing about being in ict is… to catch up with old mates… although i do not know many of them… at least its fun to find out what they did outside… what do we talk about? well… its usually about work - how much they are getting, are they moving to another company, how long they have been at their current work place, what is their work scope, etc… boring stuff… but occasionally there will be admiration… like… one guy from HP… he has $1000 allowance for transport if he owns a car… naturally, such good lobang doesnt come that often… so he bought a mitsu lancer and the loan is $600… so the rest of the money can be used for petrol and carpark etc… quite a good deal huh… so i asked him… what do you need to get a job in hp… programming… wahahahahah of cos, man… so silly of me… you see… being in army again… wearing those green uniform really make you think less… when you have a bunk… the natural thing to do is… sleep whenever you have the opportunity… that’s what we do most of the time… its clothes off, shoes off… wearing only shorts… lying on the bed and sleep… yeah.. good life huh… we just follow orders… if any

of course there are jokers around… and they are really funny… like there was this guy… quite old, i think… judging by the amount of white hair on his head… he was talking to his gf… so one of the jokers asked him to put it on speaker phone so everyone can listen… wahahaha… what do you know… that gf… said if you come out tonight i will give you oreo… (as in the dip-into-milk biscuit) but… its interpreted as "i will give you oral"… wahahaha the jokes then carried on and on… till it became the lingo for oral s**… wahahaha… yes, we have alot of dirty of man in the camp… speaking of which… when you wear that uniform… it makes you feel and think like when we were just teenagers…. these chekopeks even form their own nights out… going to massage palours and experience some special service… gosh…

my section mates are very nice… better than last year’s… cos they are very cooperative and we always go around in a group…

maybe i will buy something later… cos tmr is out-processing day… and i will only see them next year… one of section mate sighed as we were packing our stuff… he said "i wish it didnt end so fast." yeah… me too … cos its really fun being himbos and pigs… will miss it terribly… till next year, of cos

i went back to army! well… for those of you who tried to contact me… i didnt bring my hp along so… there’s delay in replying to your sms… sorry…

wearing the green uniform once a year is actually very refreshing… ha… cos i felt younger…. but the contraints of silly instructions and waiting duration is really unbearable. afterall, we are not the young and brainless teens we used to be… we now question and give opinions… and along the way do it in our own more efficient way :)  thats thinking soldier

my mum told me that my brother wanted to go out as a family last week….

so… we went to east coast park… sat down on a beach mat… and enjoyed the breeze…. my mum brought some food… white bun with spiced up pork in it…

and tasha… forever… looking restless