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today is the most happening friday of my life…

1) some gal from registrar asked me to use a huge… i mean its REALLY huge… word document in the server drive… she said that it was impossible for her to send via email… so i went to storage link provided by her… and what do you know… it is 299 MB word document… er… what on earth did she put in there… pictures… yea… pictures from the award ceremony… and names of recipients and … their prizes… there are 185 recipients… wahahahaha… so guess what… i started doing that at 9am… all the way till 5pm… wahahaha… i couldn’t take it … so i asked chee liang to help me… since he was sat beside almost every day… don’t ask me why…

2) so while doing it… at around… 11.30am… something strange happened… this laptop… this office tablet pc that i use so frequently… came alive… it started typing text on my frontpage… er… almost like what i am typing now… with lots of dots… but it didnt make sense… there were some parts of the text… that has the green river killer in it… actually i didnt know what it was about… until my curiousity got the better of me… i went to google it… and what do i know… wahhaha… there’s really something… its a murder case… so why did it type on my screen… like my tablet was possessed… i need to get witness… so i asked chee liang to take alook at my screen… he saw it too… i decided to film it… wahaha… so i took the video cam on my desk… and film it… its really scary… cos it was typing by itself… after awhile… we decided that it might be a hacker controlling my comp… so i disconnected from internet… it was calm for awhile… but it started typing again… mind you… it wasn’t some cut and paste sequence… there are incomplete sentences but it formed sentences… almost like what i am doing now… ARGH… so it wasn’t a hacker… i walked over to my deputy principal’s PA… angie… and asked her to witness the amazing thing… soon… i got hold of anyone who walked pass my cubicle… chew lee, robin toha, adrian, hui hsien… even the auditor… they all saw it…. the computer is typing out sentences after sentences on the word document…. brrrr… something very strange is happening… i got bored after watching it for an hour… so i switched off the comp… and reboot it… amazingly… the typing is gone… but i saved the text and took video of it… i had so many witnesses… i am NOT LYING… it wasn’t scary… but it is the first time such thing came so close to me… and my Hantu… stage continues… ever since my kindergarten days… till now… but it is more frequent this year… why?

3) choon seng called me and asked me if i would like to help him out… at first i didnt know what he is talking about… because i thought it was a student event… but an advisor need to take part too… and he was not feeling well… i really gave lots of excuses to push it away… cos i am lazy… wahahahaha… but he even took his shoes and lend it to me… wahahaha… luckily we wear the same size… hmmm… so… i have to thank him… because… my team came in the ultimate champion after completing more than 25 stations of sports activities… its really siong… whatever sport you can think of… i just did it… wahahaha…. its like musical chair… and we had to collect points from each stations… actually… i learnt a lot today… my strength and proficiency … still in watersports… wahahaha… but i think i pull my right waist…. dunno how to describe that area… hmmm… its the area you usually place your hands on… hmmm… oh ya… slightly higher than the hips area… painful ah… but i think it is worth it… i got my first throphy :)…. my first one… sob…and i’m nearing 30… wahahaha…

somehow… i feel more assured today… is that the correct word?…. maybe… i feel happy today… in a satisfying manner… cos… i know why this place means so much to me… its not only my friendly and good natured colleagues… but also the students… they are really a bunch of joy… it makes me feel young… just by being around them… :)  it is really wonderful… if i leave… i will not be able to experience this again… i will miss all these… sigh~… but its okay… at least i have tried it, i am happy

So it claims in the banner of its website, but i beg to defer. There is really nothing digital about the exhibitors from what i see… you don’t believe? well, click on this (http://www.sitex.com.sg/our_exhibitors.php)… it is not very convincing to me… that they claim Sitex is a digital playground… where are the REAL digital exhibitors?… are these companies selling digital electronic items?… just to name a few from the 500 exhibitors… … American Express, American International Assurance (aka AIA), Am-pro Corp, Automobile Association of Singapore (AAS), Bloompac (International), Career Central, Cash Convertors, DBS Bank, Jobsfactory, Manulife, MIW.com.sg, OCBC Bank, onemotoring.com, Philips Security, Singapore Press Holdings, Singapore Pools, United Overseas Bank, etc… … why are these companies there at a so-called "digital playground" exhibition…

Are these companies contributing to the economy by grabbing spots in exhibitions with high volume of traffic? wahahahahaha

it is just plain stupid for the organiser to include them… by the way… the organiser has categories for prospective exhibitors… http://www.sitex.com.sg/exhibitor_profile.php… so you mean that those above falls under… business IT??? that’s the closest … i think.. sorry… my peanut brain cannot really understand by categories… wahahahaah… or maybe its a sub-category… surely

and studying the booth numbers… it seems like there is not many MAJOR players at this exhibition… pathetic…

come on… we are not stupid… where are the incentives to go all the way to a remote part of Singapore?

every now and then you come to a cross road… it is time to reflect upon yourself… it is time to make a closure and move on… it is also a time to make changes and go in the direction you have in mind… our lives are perhaps the longest movie… if it can be counted in that way… my best friend asked me today… what do i want for christmas… and i said… i want to be happy

maybe it has reached that peak in my life where all i want is some happiness… of any kind… seriously… nothing is more important than that… if i can smile and be happy… hey… that is what i am looking for

i went to my good uni friends wedding yesterday… you know… both are quite cute in a way… because they are my classmates… and because i think i can claim i know them better than some others… i guess… we are kind of interwined but i am glad both of them have decided to share their lifes… happy… i can see… so do not worry about the wedding dinner… it is really… very very beautiful… those pictures on the big screen… like most wedding dinners… were showed and there were some really funny moments… actually, i felt so happy yesterday… meeting my friends… although not all turned up… but it is good enough… the usual conversation about work, pay and love… but that’s what is interesting… thank you for sharing with me… as usual… we were wondering when we would get married… or to be exact… who is the next in line… haa… don’t count me in though… i do not know if i am ready or… maybe i should say… i do not know where is mine… haaa… everyone seems to be doing well in their job… eh… i know it is silly to be envious… but yea… i am… because although i love my job (because it is simply bo-liao… and i shake my legs very frequent… plus the fact that i can go to use the facilities without having to travel…) haaa… but sometimes… we have to face reality… i did ask myself if it is getting me anywhere… the answer is no… i am not learning… or maybe i did not make the effort to learn and excel more… i am not motivated… haaa… you know it is not a good thing when everyone in your organisation is talking about leaving for greener pastures ever so often… it just makes you want to go too… haaa… but i am enjoying myself so far even though shit are many many… it is still bearable…

oh… i recalled something… i was in the taxi with xiao wen yesterday after dinner… that girl is lucky… she went to germany for training… what luxury… she stayed in a basement apartment all by herself… and according to her… life in germany is just plain sailing… crime is almost non-existent… she cited someone who claimed that you can put your bag on the bench in the public park… or something like that… and it will not be touched… haaa… i would like to go germany one day… maybe live there… eh… i do want to live and work in a foreign country… i think i am too fortunate… and i do not treasure things i have here… i need some adventure… some level of uncertainty… some rush of adrenaline… basically… i am bored… yes…

although i know this a long time ago… i think i am more aware of it now… I AM A LONER! haaa… yes, although i yearn for company to alleviate my boredom… i am pretty much a loner who enjoys doing things myself… that’s why… i can sit alone in the office… far far away from my dept colleagues… haaa… yes, i am seated so far away from them that… if they were to walk over… it will meant walking at least 100 metres… haa… the building i am in… is rectangular… and i think it is more than 100 metres… how about a race? haaa…

i think i talk too much… i will introduce my favourite chinese song from Jay… in his latest album "I am busy"… this is "the longest movie" …. hence the title of this blog… ta-dah~

最长的电影 周杰伦 (http://wmacnc.f130.com/wmass8899/new6/0026/10.wma)

我们的开始            
是很长的电影       
放映了三年            
我票都还留着         
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

my friend sent me this… i think it’s beautiful… just want to share it with you…

okie wat it basically says is tat diff ppl have got diff "love" language

and many couples not happy cuz they fail to recognise their partner’s love language the 5 langages are basically the diff ways we show love in general words of affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, acts of service, physical touch eg maybe the ger’s pri love language is words of affirmation but the bf’s is acts of service the bf shows his love by doing little things for the gf but he doesnt give her words of affirmation so ther ger feels tat she is unloved because she has failed to recognised the bf’s love language everyone reads love in their own love language….. and usually show their love thru this language well, I’ve learnt from this tat sometimes my bf may love me in his own way I need to learn to recognise it but then I also think each partner should also learn to speak each other’s love languages and try to speak it too I mean most of the time you may love the person your way but I guess once in a while you can love tat person the way he/she wants it

let us remember our fellow friends who unfortunately left suddenly…

rueben kee’s songs http://www.ocremix.org/remixer/reubenkee/

Alicia Keys - The Thing About Love
Youtube (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2g8ZQl94sXU)

Love~
Love will come find you
Just to remind you
Of who you are

Hold on
It will forsake you
Threaten to break you
Take what you got

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby
But give it a little try
See that’s the thing about love

Friends~
Sometimes will blind you
Sneak up behind you
You can’t give enough

Then life
It will embrace you
Totally amaze you
So you don’t give up

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Or it could hurt you baby
But give it a little try
See that’s the thing about love

Don’t tell me that i’m not the only that’s going thru’ it all
Ohhh sometimes I feel like i’m the only that’s going thru’ it all
But it’s time
Oh it’s time
For me to shine
Hey
It’s my time
Oh it’s time
For me to shine

It’s my time
Say it’s my time
For me to shine
It’s my time
It’s about time
For me to shine

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby
But give it a little try
That’s the thing about love
That’s the thing about love
That’s the thing about
That’s the thing about love

it is the last day of my long leave… 18 days to be exact… in these 18 days, i spent it mostly on preparation for my exam… when i do have time for myself… i spent it at home… i think my relationship with tasha, my doggie, has become better… she loves to jump onto my bed and sleep with me at night… haaa… i made some good friends along the way… i hope these friendships will last… beyond the current context… haa… because i realised its really that hard to maintain friendship… i’m taking a backseat now and i will try to pursue things that i want to do during the remaining days of 2007… and i must congratulate my friends for hitching… stay happy and together okay… may you guys have babies soon

i shall salvage the remaining half of my last day of leave… by enjoying myself… who cares about the 1200 emails that flooded my inbox… i am not going to do those work today… tmr bah

my previous post (here) highlighted the i-Mivec sports! it is an incredibly futuristic car!!! click here to find out more

you know how the web empowers people… those previously silent majority are now opening their mouth like nobody’s business… they are commenting, joking, suggesting, etc… love it!

so i happen to chance upon this article on mrBrown… yeah… he is the man… and it has this post on Malaysia’s Information Minister and his interview with a foreign broadcaster… wahahaha

I suggest you visit kennysia (http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2007/11/the_zam_rap.php) to find out more…

read the comments on kennysia’s blog… its damn funny… wahahahahaha

yes, why should i? well, i am going through a lot of reflection recently amidst preparation (or somewhat like that) for examination… bleh~ this must be one of the most ponderous week i ever have on myself…

you see… i know where my passion lies… yet… it is quite unreachable with my current skill set… yet… i am not doing anything to achieve it… i am just wasting my own precious time… dumb right?

it was forgivable when i am young… and just graduated… but now that i am two years and a half (nearly) into my career… surely i must know when to stop fooling and go directly to the industry i desire, right? no… i’m precisely not doing that…

there are many reasons why i am procrastinating… but i will rather not go there… it is all excuses i have for myself… and no… i am not seeking for condolences either…

just some thoughts that stick in my head… and i can’t help but pour it out… just ignore this post… please…

i was so desperate to find out if i am in the correct job that… i went to this online site to test my personality… to see if it matches what i am doing… http://www.futureproofyourcareer.com/career-test-career.html

so guess what… it is true…

"You are more comfortable working in structured situations where there is a measure of order and predictability."

I feel more secure in a structured environment where there is a measure of order and predictability. My present workplace doesnt give me that. I am constantly under pressure to "find" the correct procedure that is aligned not to one person’s direction but to the organisation… which is not written down or endorsed for us to follow.

"You naturally seek high-energy action packed situations rather than being a thoughtful and reflective type."

I am so bored although i have so many major events to run but it is mostly one man show… and i am likened to be a runner more than a planner. most of all, my efforts go unappreciated. no thanks, no praise, no nothing…

"You are essentially a practical person who prefers to see tangible results and mastering the things you do."

Yes, I get joy in seeing that I have accomplished a project and everyone goes home happy. I also get a sense of satisfaction when i uncover programming codes that my webmaster tries so hard to hide from me… and i edit her codes to suit my preferences… but these are just chance… i have no formal knowledge of C+, javascript, whatsoever

"You are a person who seeks mastery and control over the activities you are involved in and you respect efficiency, productivity and achieving results."

Ya, true… i do like to be in control… i will get crazy if it isn’t. efficiency, productivity and results are a measure of my competency… if i don’t get that… i will be mad with myself… and i have a tendency to expect the same from people i am working with… and that includes my boss…

"You like to reach closure on the things you are dealing with rather than leaving matters undecided. Beware, because this can sometimes lead to hasty decision-making."

Exactly, if things are not closed or completedly… like now… i am on leave… there are still some projects going on… i will get a bit panicky… i will tend to ask if anyone backstabs me when i am away… and choose to ignore the project and let me die when i come back to work… i am that paranoid

The three Fields of Work that best match your abilities, intelligences and interests are:

• Management

• Office and administrative support

• Architecture and engineering

Wow, bravo! spot on… i cannot believe this online thing is better than my mum… it understands me better than myself!

"You are likely to rise to positions of authority in organizations, as you are one who sees that things get done."

Er, you salah! although i do get things done… that is because i do not want others to stab me from behind and i get a sense of satisfaction from a completed job… and you better wash your BRAIN… your logic is so wrong… doing things doesn’t equal to rising in positions…. blah… it just means that you are a good worker…

A boss doesn’t do things himself; his subordinates do it for him
A boss directs and waxes lyrical on his ideas; his subordinates decipher and act upon his ideas
A boss acts as if he is very busy; his subordinates work round the clock so that he can present to management his ideas
A boss locks his doors before you do; his subordinates lock the office and close shop!

BLAH!!!